Young Love

      When you are young you will fall in love and fall out of love. Have your heart broken many times. The sad thing I have noticed with myself if that I have only been in two relationships that meant something to me and one that was a roller coaster. With those relationship I have learned to I guess you want to call it get over it faster them most people. The reason I have come to this conclusion is because I learned to hide my feelings and emotions from others and myself. Yes it does blow up in my face once in a blue moon, but when you get use to shutting your emotions off because your emotions get in the way of doing what you do best. I guess what I am trying to say here is, is that no matter how it ended I will still always care about that person. No I may not cry or feel needy. It is not who I am or how I handle my breakups or problems.

       I will give you an example I was with someone for a year and almost five months. What we had at the time was grate and was true love. We started drifting apart the last few months and fighting more. I felt like the typical trying to keep something going I new would never last any longer. We decided to end it and it went south from their. I could not stop crying for longer then five minutes the next day. But the day after that I acted like nothing ever happened. The reason for that is because my protectiveness kicked in. It is hard to explain how I feel when this happens but I also know what I am doing for myself. My family would be supportive like always just is how I am.

       Here I am now a month and a week later and I still feel like nothing ever happened except that emptiness in my heart. I learn to ignore and finally it goes away. Yes I am young and I will brake hearts and have more, even fall in love more. But right now I need to focus on my life. If you have not noticed I use the blog to help release some of the bottled up things. I am not one to run to someone or vent to someone I am more the the type of person people come to when they need to vent.

      Anyway Young love does hurt and sucks and is nice all in one but it sucks more when you feel like a careless heartless bottled up wench.