My first boyfriend was in 8th grade. I was silly and immature. I started talking to him because he was my friends boyfriend at the time. Granted she is no longer my friend and is only an acquaintance on a professional level. They broke up and we talked more on Facebook. To speed up the story I will skip some stuff. We "dated" on and off. I would find out he was cheating on my with another girl. He did this to me many times. I let him walk all over my heart 4 times my 8th grade year.
It was 8th grade formal and I wanted him to go but he could not come. So he said he would meet me on the water front. I saw me and ditched me. I was upset but still had fun. Oh well his loss. I found out he was cheating again and nothing happened for a while. That summer at the Bay Festival I meet him in person for the first time. I was nervous but excited.
He was trying to be all cute and what not. I saw a neck-less I loved. My sister suggested he should buy it for me. He went to take out his wallet and I took him away from that area so he could not get it. Later that day was the fire works he was suppose to show up and he never did.
Freshman year I took him back 4 more times for a total of 8 times. He and I were back and forth for 2 years. Between him cheating on me, lying straight to my face when I knew the truth, and being two faced towards me, I still only thought about helping him become a better person. It was and is who I am. He never wanted to go out or hang out. Never wanted to be around me at school to show me off.
My sophomore year was when I though I was in love with him. I did all I could to keep him in my life. Junior year was when I realized I am not going to let him walk all over my heart. I told him I was through trying and when he realized I was the only one who cared then come talk to me. That was when he told me he only dated me because he felt sorry for me.
Senior year we hardly speak now and when we do it is the same old crap. He tries to tell me he loves me now and wants me back. I gave him 3 conditions and 6 months to complete them. He is no longer in that part of my heart. But he always will be because he was my first true...love....
My second boyfriend was the opposite. We got to know one another through a good friend. It was over April vacation my sophomore year we because a couple. For like 2 months all we could do was hug. When he would try to kiss me I got too nervous and would turn away. Our first date was at the movie theater. Of all movies to watch we watched Avengers. I never would have understood it even if I payed attestation.
I was kinda cuddling with him and we were just kinda flitting and looking in one another eyes. He was running his fingers though my hair and down my cheek. He kisses my cheek, then my nose. Out of no where his lips were touching mine. It was quick but sweet. Next thing I know his hand was caressing my face and he kisses me again but longer.
He was my first kiss and it was perfect. To this day I smile and giggle when I think about that day in the theater. Every morning he would message me saying "Good Morning my beautiful princess." At night our long talks he always said " Good Night my Beautiful Princess. Have a wonderful night." Everything was grate.
I fell in love even harder. We were together almost 1 full year. The crap we went though all because he is 3 years older then I am. My parents did not like it because they were worried I would do something stupid. His parents "step mother" was worried I would call the cops for something that would have been both our designation
That summer at the Bangor fair we hung our and he got me to go on 2 rides I was scared of. The snowman one that spins like crazy. The other was the log one. I am scared of heights but he said he would be with me every step of the way. He gave me a duck from one of the games. He also made me a simple heart neck-less and a bracelet he found around the house that on one owned. We hugged a lot and kissed more. :)
I wrote him letters explaining to him how I felt and how he has helped me because a better person. He was my Prince Charming. We hung out as much as we could. Granted my parents had no idea about us and a friend of mine would take me up to see him while we hung as well.
Not even two weeks before our one year my longest relationship we were forced to brake up. It was all because his step mom found the letters I wrote him explaining how he has made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I was crushed. Everything that reminded me of him is in a shoe box in my closet so I don't cry. I still love him with all my heart. I truly believe he is my sole mate.
That is a little history about the two guys I have dated. It is not much but I am who I am. I just wont let my self get walked all over anymore.
Freshman year I took him back 4 more times for a total of 8 times. He and I were back and forth for 2 years. Between him cheating on me, lying straight to my face when I knew the truth, and being two faced towards me, I still only thought about helping him become a better person. It was and is who I am. He never wanted to go out or hang out. Never wanted to be around me at school to show me off.
My sophomore year was when I though I was in love with him. I did all I could to keep him in my life. Junior year was when I realized I am not going to let him walk all over my heart. I told him I was through trying and when he realized I was the only one who cared then come talk to me. That was when he told me he only dated me because he felt sorry for me.
Senior year we hardly speak now and when we do it is the same old crap. He tries to tell me he loves me now and wants me back. I gave him 3 conditions and 6 months to complete them. He is no longer in that part of my heart. But he always will be because he was my first true...love....
My second boyfriend was the opposite. We got to know one another through a good friend. It was over April vacation my sophomore year we because a couple. For like 2 months all we could do was hug. When he would try to kiss me I got too nervous and would turn away. Our first date was at the movie theater. Of all movies to watch we watched Avengers. I never would have understood it even if I payed attestation.
I was kinda cuddling with him and we were just kinda flitting and looking in one another eyes. He was running his fingers though my hair and down my cheek. He kisses my cheek, then my nose. Out of no where his lips were touching mine. It was quick but sweet. Next thing I know his hand was caressing my face and he kisses me again but longer.
He was my first kiss and it was perfect. To this day I smile and giggle when I think about that day in the theater. Every morning he would message me saying "Good Morning my beautiful princess." At night our long talks he always said " Good Night my Beautiful Princess. Have a wonderful night." Everything was grate.
I fell in love even harder. We were together almost 1 full year. The crap we went though all because he is 3 years older then I am. My parents did not like it because they were worried I would do something stupid. His parents "step mother" was worried I would call the cops for something that would have been both our designation
That summer at the Bangor fair we hung our and he got me to go on 2 rides I was scared of. The snowman one that spins like crazy. The other was the log one. I am scared of heights but he said he would be with me every step of the way. He gave me a duck from one of the games. He also made me a simple heart neck-less and a bracelet he found around the house that on one owned. We hugged a lot and kissed more. :)
I wrote him letters explaining to him how I felt and how he has helped me because a better person. He was my Prince Charming. We hung out as much as we could. Granted my parents had no idea about us and a friend of mine would take me up to see him while we hung as well.
Not even two weeks before our one year my longest relationship we were forced to brake up. It was all because his step mom found the letters I wrote him explaining how he has made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I was crushed. Everything that reminded me of him is in a shoe box in my closet so I don't cry. I still love him with all my heart. I truly believe he is my sole mate.
That is a little history about the two guys I have dated. It is not much but I am who I am. I just wont let my self get walked all over anymore.
Ashley,
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you've been lucky and unlucky in love. I know this sounds trite or cliche (and you're probably going to hate me for saying it) but you're so young. You have all the time in the world to figure out who you are and who you want to be with. And for the record, I like who you are and how you value yourself. You shouldn't be anybody's doormat!!!
Keep living and loving and blogging my friend!
I know I am young. But they say the more mature you are the more you know what you want in life. Why would I hate you. You are one of my favorite teachers. Young love is true love.
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